Love: Like Clockwork

Your pointed hands dance before my eyes,

Forcing me to stare.

Keeping me chained with constant anxiety.

Your beautiful crystal-white face smiles at me from across the room,

But your glass house keeps you protected from my tinkering.

Your slender arms always moving in a

Steady,

Beautiful,

Rhythm,

I hang on your every tick and tock,

Until I can finally be free.

Some Statements Created Through Magnet Poetry

They were just words, I added punctuation to make them sentences...kinda.

Enjoy:

"Would sixty million sheep go into infinity? Some don’t."

"Each day, nine good little beans abuse a tall grain press."

"Country grows like artichokes in city."

"Who is who with seven thousand computer trees?"

"Real yellow where small dog try to sleep."

"Never read and write under your own pie."

"Run Gingerbread Company not for self."

"You see bread, then our idea of their lighthouse."

Ward: The Writer

I don’t sit down at my black Target discount desk and write. I throw up on paper with a pen in my hand.

Ward is the writer. He acts symbiotically with me. He takes all of that word vomit and finds what worth writing about. It’s his pen that sits poised in my hand, and it’s his hand that makes it write.

I put words on a page to prove something, to prove I can write, but it might as well be to prove I’m literate with the content hanging on the value of the words. Of course I want to be great, but I really write to prove that I can do what I set out to do. Prove that I can finish something, and that it will meet my standard.

Ward takes my words I place all over the page and presents them with style and creates an art. He works with my structure-less clay and molds it to meet my standard.

He writes to feel good, to be reflective, cynical, fun.

I just make the motions.

I write to look good. I write to make the “Kelly” at the top of the page shine. To make people see my name and think, Oh my! Kelly is sooo interesting. Maybe I should sleep with him? That’s a joke, but I wouldn’t fight them. I write to keep my name out there, to create a recognizable identity, to be noticed. I want to accomplish something. I don’t want to be a face in the crowd. I want to be published, and would love to be famous. To have people read the vomit I spew forth onto my page.

Ward doesn’t care about these things. He writes to vent and because it makes him happy. He doesn’t care if anyone notices him in public, or if anyone reads the art he paints with my pen. He writes with the sole understanding that I may be the only one to read his work and tell him my thoughts.

Ward could care less.

Ward is sarcastic, strange, and funny. I try to be deep and write provocatively, but I just end up getting in Ward’s way. He tends to toss out my ideas to build a stronger, better piece of art.

I just try to live a little. Find a niche and go out into the world. Ward sits at the dark black Target desk I bought him. He just sits and waits there for me to come home and bring him something new to work with.

Ward is a part of me. He’ll stay with me and with any luck, I can get all I want from him and he’ll always get what he wants from me. I’ll always have words that attract themselves to a blank page like magnet poetry. I’m happy to have Ward there to take the time to – with more talent – rearrange my words into an art that I can appreciate. Maybe one day, if I get my way, I won’t be the only one appreciating it.

A forum post that I thought was funny

Read this out loud and with inflection and exclamation on the CAPS parts, it's stupid.

Also, no punctuation. So it's literally one giant sentence.

"so if you look that there is no major thing in that update same windows same big square ok espn and netflix but espn aint gonna be able here in canada again big deal and ha now i see why xbox live gonna cost 10$ more for listening movie on netflix im gonna stay with my ps3 its free to login on psnetwork so for those who live their life with microsoft on there heart good for you for other its nothing new listening sport on cpu its free even the boxe event are free on www.ifight.tk SO FOR AL GAMER DOES THESE THING'S BETER FOR THE CONSOLE OR JUST FOR DE F?%?&ING LOOK WE WANT TO PLAY FU$%%?ING GAMES GOOD GAMES NOT 7HOUR GAMES LIKE POOR GAYLO BEACH PLEASE MICROSOFT STOP TRY BEING PRETIER JUST TRY TO MAKE GOOD LONG GAMES AND PLEASE DONT MAKE US PAY 10$ MORE FOR SOMETING THAT A LOT WILL NEVER USE BECEAUSE WERE MOSTLY ALL HAVE A BLU RAY DRIVE BUY THE WAY PAY YOUR INTERNET PROVIDER PAY YOUR XBOX LIVE PAY YOUR SUBSCRIPTION TO NETFLIX AN THEN PAY FEE'S BEACEAUSE YOU PLAY ONLINE AND LISTENING MOVIE ON YOUR XBOX MICROSOFT GONNA CONTINUE TO TAKE OUR MONEY UNTIL WE GAMERS GONNA STAND UP AND TELL THEM IS WE CONTINU TO BUY AND SAY NOTHING THEY ARE GONNA CONTINU TO RAISE PRICE AND WE GOT TO SAY IT LOUD WE ARE THE GAMER WE PAY FOR THING THAT ARE SUPOSED TO BE GOOD STUFF BUT NO COMPANY GONNA DO SHIT UNTIL WE STAND UP GAMER ITS TIME FOR US TO STAND UP AND TELL WHAT WE REALY WANT"

Very rousing commentary if I've ever seen any...

PAX 2010 - Day 2

We woke up a little early today, not earlier than yesterday, and then went to BYOC and then went into the exhibition hall and explored the expo.

I ended up doing less exploring, but instead standing in a line for about 2 hours to do a demo. It was hell. BUT, I got to demo a great game and ended up demo-ing it with a hot gaming celebrity, Jessica Chobot (Jason is jealous).

I did get a good look at some costumes and stuff. Not bad. Sooooo much time spent on those things!

Halo Dudes

Turret and Engineer

PAX 2010 - Day 1

So, it's the first day of PAX (Penny Arcade Expo) 2010. It's a massive nerd convention. Video games, computer games, just ALL GAMES. Possible tax write off, work expense?

So, we're in the BYOC room and there are literally 500 people in here with 500 computers. Thousands of dollars of hardware, and one group of dudes in blue shirts guarding it all. Hopefully, MY stuff won't be stolen.

Ok, I'll be in the hall soon. Except, there are about.... 25,000/35,000 people in front of me.

Here's a picture of Jason in the BYOC room

More later.....

Grandma's Review of AVATAR

"Kelly, I just watched that Avatar movie last night."

Oh yea, Grandma? What did you think?

"I thought it was really good, you do understand the message, don't you Kel?"

Oh ya, definitely Grandma. It's like Ferngully and Pocahontas. Like a telling of how the Europeans exploited the Indians when they came to America.

"Yea, sure Kel. Its actually about technology and how its ruining us all."

What? I don't remember...

"Yep. The other day I was on the phone with a woman, and she kept telling me how I had to check the internet to fix my problem. I remember when it used to be that you just had to fix it yourself. It was easy. Now, I don't have any idea what's going on. Do you remember in the movie how the humans had all the technology? The blue people didn't, and they died because of it. The humans were ruled by the technology. That's what the movie is really about."

Also about the Europeans exploiting the Native Americans and how they killed a lot of them and took their lands? Right, Grandma?

"No, I don't think so."



Apparently, my grandma is worried about a technological apocalypse, and Avatar had nothing to do with Native Americans.